Time has moved as the sky turned dull,
looking at the windows as I starts to frown.
Thinking about the times we had, the time had stopped.
For every second with you seems eternal after all.

If only time stops, we could do so much more.
No need to fret, no need to worry.
But cause time has passed, the day has set
And now it's just a night that looks so sad.

If time has stopped, we could laugh non stop
Just like my heart keeps going on and hop
But cause time has passed, you fell asleep
And all that's left is a lonely me.

But I will wait, as the time has passed,
the time will slowly reach past the dawn,
and you will be awake as the time goes on
Just like my love for you keep going on and on.

So if time does stop, please don't stop,
at the precious time I am waiting for you.
Stop at the time we are together,
Cause then our moments last forever.

I am giving up.. not like I want it.. but it's because.. I am so tired..so tired.. I am going to get send to imh soon in this state.. what can I do?

When..are you gonna come..drag me out..of my abyss? It's..like living hell here..who can save me..

Why...me? Why am I suffering.. why..am I losing control of myself... why.. am I dying..inside..

Haha..life is such a joke to play a prank on me.. take away what I have.. when I got the most out of it..

I am losing..hope now.. losing...so much hope now..

I guess.. it's too late to save me..Even you... Peachy..

When I love you.. I really do.. when I rely on you.. I really do.. When I give you my heart... I am serious..

But..

There is a reason why I run away. When I finally knew I can't fully rely on you because you too have a life..that belongs to you. Yes.. loving someone there isn't wrong.. but taking someone wholely..is just selfish of me..

Moreover... we are distancing... when distance happens... I feel so insecure...so afraid..so tired.. I know I am losing my hopes..soon.. I guess the real truth is... I am afraid to get hurt..by you.. especially you... cause... you are the most important to me..

Im so scared..who can pull me out of my abyss?..

Trust...are you doubting me..nowadays..? Or.. just me...losing hope on you..?

To live alone.. recently.. Despite having so many people with me. That loneliness is back.. did I close my heart once more..? I dun know eh.. close my heart..close my fears.. Even.. I have to close away from.. you..

Sorry.. I promise to do it together.. but I can't let you suffer alone.. I must make you smile..so no matter what you ain't.. gonna go with me this time..round.

To..stand or crumble.. I hope.. I won't know the answer...

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Will you believe me?

What.. can I see in my future?

I have no idea.. 

I been wondering...how to live my days off my future.. but I really can't imagine.. seeing myself doing something..good

Im losing hope day by day... will I be able to stand again..? Or will I limb forever? Or..will I just give up?

I dk.. I..can't..really see..myself.. anymore

Damn.. it's so late..and I can't fall asleep. Tired of having sleepless Night..  I wish.. I can sleep soundly one day.. sigh... why can't I?