If you ever had the chance to ask something you always want to know, what would it be?

Times and times. I ask myself. What do I want to know in life. Is it being successful when I grow up or just being a useless fool out there having to do all the dirty jobs. Then again, I decided not to ask about my future. Cause destiny is up to my hand, I believe I will choose the future I want when I grow up. So, why not ask about the past? Like asking those happy memories or sad ones you cant remember of? Yet, I would not ask as our past is over and there are more memories we could create in life which we can remember of. So..its the present we want to know of. A lot ask if whether they will find love or study good.. Yet to me..all I want to know is.

Will I changed to a better? To my old self or even better?

Cause now, pain is just all I could feel.. I feel numb and tired despite others trying to make me happy. I feel frustrated cause Im alone. But I know out there, there are people who needs me..so..why am I being blinded by the pain? I wish to be the old me..who knows that I will only feel hurt physically, not emotionally..

Im just hoping..i will slowly slowly..stand up once more in life and stay strong..once again.

So, what do you wish to know readers? I believe you too have a question you always want to know of.

Oh..and Im sorry to a few people. People whom I have hurt, whom I have make them down. Move on kay? Im not what you guys expect me to be. I guess..its my fault.

And..Jie..sorry.