I am giving up.. not like I want it.. but it's because.. I am so tired..so tired.. I am going to get send to imh soon in this state.. what can I do?

When..are you gonna come..drag me out..of my abyss? It's..like living hell here..who can save me..

Why...me? Why am I suffering.. why..am I losing control of myself... why.. am I dying..inside..

Haha..life is such a joke to play a prank on me.. take away what I have.. when I got the most out of it..

I am losing..hope now.. losing...so much hope now..

I guess.. it's too late to save me..Even you... Peachy..